I just...dunno any more. I love Prophecy to death, really, I do. But the attitudes of some people in the guild just really rub me the wrong way sometimes.
I'm tired of the 'zomg, DKP' and 'zomg, loot' attitudes. I'm tired of hearing about "So-and-so drops my
And I'm really tired of hearing about how I don't know what I'm talking about. That I just need to hush, because I'm apparently a small child with ADHD who doesn't pay attention to what's going on around her.
I pay attention. I pay attention more than you'd think sometimes.
I know that I was rather growly yesterday. But I don't think I need to apologize for it.
Time to explain my reasoning, I suppose.
I have never liked people telling me what to do. If it seems logical enough ('we need you to tank x, we need you to battle res y, can you innervate z'), sure, no problem. It's not an order, it's a request.
Telling me what mods I can and can't have really rubs me the wrong way. I understand the annoyRP thing. I really do. It makes sense, it procs a lot, so turning it off during raids? No problem.
But when I feel like I'm the only one being spoken to about this, when it somehow became a law that 'You can't do this', especially when I had no input on said law when I'm an officer of the guild (or, at least, my name has Seer out beside it)...that pisses me off royally.
It's been rubbing me the wrong way about gems too.
Look.
I understand what you guys are trying to do. Really, I do. I understand it, and I'm happy for it, but part of me is really uneasy with it.
If someone wants to put stamina gems in their gear, and they pay for them with their own money...let them. I know you want to make people better.
But this whole thing smacks of "We won't tell you how to spec or how to gear...but wait! We changed our minds. Wear these gems or you don't get to raid."
I pick my own gems. No one has spoken to me about said gems because you all assume I know what I'm doing. Also, I highly suspect you also have no clue what feral druids go for in gems, so you leave me alone.
But telling Tielyn that he can't have stamina gems in his healing gear, telling Kiwi she can't put in stamina gems in her gear...and then, seeing people die on Solarian because they barely have enough health to survive?
That irks me a bit.
If it's not gimping their healing, and they're not running out of mana...then what's the problem? I use two pieces of gladiator gear in my raiding and rock 11k hp in cat form. Cat form. I don't need stamina gems, but if I put it in my gear...no one says anything. Because so much of my gear does double duty, no one thinks it's weird.
I'm tired of seeing our healers at barely 8k life fully buffed with spicy crawdads.
I'm tired of hearing how 'so and so won't listen to me about their spec'.
Look.
The people in our guild are intelligent.
Maybe we should start showing damage meters after raids. Show them where they fall by using the gems they do. I guarantee you, some of them will say, "Hey...I want to do more damage. Show me how."
But telling them "You will wear these gems. You will take this gear" doesn't make people happy.
Another point.
There's been a lot of snapping going around the guild, and yes, I know I've been part of it.
But when I feel like I'm constantly targeted and my personal choices in movies, interests, etc. put down, I get defensive, and I get angry.
Seriously.
Who gives a flying fuck if I don't like Blazing Saddles?
Who cares if I want to only raid Friday and Saturday?
It doesn't make me any less of a person.
It doesn't mean your opinions are any more valid than mine because you've seen more movies than me.
And sorry...but I could care less about being a 'hardcore raider' when I have a degree to work on and a life outside of the game that's seriously been neglected.
I lost two dogs a month ago within 2 weeks of each other.
I'm trying to eat healthier and exercise more often.
I'm trying to get back into karate.
I'm working on exploring new interests.
I've been supporting my mate as he works on getting a new house, and finally moving out of his apartment, away from his ex.
I'm trying to help out my parents by looking at potential job opportunities this summer and next fall.
Given all that, can you really fault me for drawing back from World of Warcraft? Can you sit here and criticize me for wanting to get my life back in order the way it should be?
Because if you can, you might want to look at yourself first. See what's bothering you so much that you have an inexplicable need to have a snarky comment for every word that comes out of my mouth.
Stop trying to tell me what I should do, both in game and out of game. Stop trying to tell me how to run my relationship.
It's my life. It's my choice. It's my mate.
Fix yourself before you start trying to fix anyone else.
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